As I stood answering 21 questions and wobbled my way into my husbands heart; I took a step back and contemplated "Why am I fat?" When I met my husband 10 years ago I was 75lbs lighter than I am today!
Now Imma give you the short version. It all started back in 1982 when my mother gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, me, skinny chic... Just kidding, I'm not really going back that far, but seriously what I will say is I had a pretty hard life.
As with most families in my reality, alcoholism and drug addiction crept their way into my family and took up residence. Yes Dr. Phil, (in my Dr. Phil voice) I know there are tons of emotional and environmental factors that are directly correlated to my unhealthy lifestyle as a result of my childhood. Aside from that fact, the most important epiphany came to me only recently. It was then that I realized I inherited my family's addictive characteristics.
I am an addict and food is my drug of choice. I have triggers and struggles with self control the same as a person addicted to drugs or alcohol. I am a habitual overeater, each meal going way beyond the point of satisfaction and I ultimately end up doing the walk of fat shame back to my corner to sulk about it.
I've never enjoyed the fat life, which is why I've fought so hard these last four years to change it. Understanding that I am an addict has helped me better understand my need for recovery.
Maybe your issue is financial, relational, or health just like mine. Whatever the issue, the same basic recovery principals apply:
- Admit there's a problem.
- If you can't acknowledge that your current situation and ways of thinking about it are flawed you'll never be able to effectively change it.
- Research how to correct the problem
- God, prayer, books, internet, friends and family can all be great resources to help figure out what will work for you.
- Decide which option will work best for you.
- Be realistic and stay away from "Microwave" fixes. Change that happens fast without any real hard work tends to leave just as fast.
- Make a choice and begin to actively and purposefully change your habits.
- Small changes over time create big changes in the long run.
- Take it one day at a time.
- There are no setbacks; just hiccups and once they're gone you're back to the plan.
- Remember this is a lifestyle.
- It took more than a day to get to this point, it'll take more than a day to get out of it.
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Lastly, If you're a fat chic like me stay motivated, be encouraged, and know that inside of every fat chic is a skinny chic waiting to come out!
