WE NOW INTERRUPT YOUR DAY WITH MY PERSONAL SOAP BOX MOMENT:
A minimum of 22 years I've spent at war with obesity, depression, and low self esteem and what do I have to show for it? A barrage of unflattering pictures, a fear of rejection, and a closet full of clothes that I can't fit. I've spent my life searching for my purpose; that one thing that God sent me here to accomplish. I want my life to mean something. I want to leave the world better than I found it.
So I pick up my trash and try really hard not to litter. I'm conscious of the footprint I'm leaving on the earth; so I try to run water sparingly, recycle and reuse recycled materials, try not to leave lights on, and try to consciously be aware of how my choices are going to affect my daughter and the generations to come. I've been blessed with a creative spirit; one in which I can apply words to music, poetry, or paper (well in this case a webpage) and create something that is enticing, encouraging, and at times brilliant (If I should say so myself). I'm also crafty (my second husband is pinterest and my first husband isn't fond of him). I'm a dreamer, I'm loyal, I love hard, I'm witty, I'm honest (I try never to lie...not even the "I was just joking" lies), I'm a risk taker (within reason), I'm a fighter, I'm a leader, I'm a motivator, I'm inspirational, I'm passionate, I'm human.
With all of that I could not understand, for the life of me, why I was not able to achieve the level of excellence that I desire in my endeavors. In the past I've started several projects; never seeing one to completion. At times I feel like I'm my own worst enemy, sabotaging my own life (haters step aside). I'm taken back to the day I graduated from college, one of the most fulfilling experiences in my life. Mostly because I was a first generationer, but also because there were many days that I thought I wouldn't make it. I've cleared so many hurdles on this path, but not before toppling over some.
As I sat trying to understand; I was brought to a scripture, 1 Corinthians 9:24-27, and it hit me. God has never given up on anything; He finished the world and He has an expected end for each of us. For so long I've failed to exhibit this attribute of God's character because I constantly fall victim to the curse that so many have succumb to; complacency and mediocrity. I defeated depression in 2008 and haven't looked back. My self esteem is the highest it has ever been and it has no where else to go but up. I married an amazing man, I have an amazing daughter, and I serve an awesome God; yet something is blocking my elevation.
The verse in Corinthians and reflection showed me that of all of my life's accomplishments there's still one failure that haunts me; obesity. In conquering that I truly believe that I will receive the push, drive, and motivation that I need to propel me to the next level of excellence in every area of my life. This verse calls me to be diligent, run with purpose in every step, discipline my life, and never give up. It calls me to exude God's Spirit of completion. I've learned that actions speak louder than words so I'd rather show you than tell you; but for those who are audible learners and you prefer to hear it: I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!
Are you ready to fulfill the call and purpose that God's placed on your life? Let's start right now with this.
Let's go! (You may now return to your regularly scheduled life events)
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Lastly, If you're a fat chic like me stay motivated, be encouraged, and know that inside of every fat chic is a skinny chic waiting to come out.
